Throughout the years I had convinced myself that I am unlikable. (All throughout this post I'm talking about like-liking. You know what I mean.) Girls haven't liked me since I was 10. I could never figure it out. I don't consider myself the most attractive man in the world, but I also didn't ever think I was really ugly. And I don't think my personality is all that bad. Heck, I've even had girls tell me that I'm practically the ideal guy one way or another. But because of circumstances, or the sheer lack of feelings towards me, girls don't like me. I am unlikable.
Yet, a girl likes me. How does that work?
I have wanted a girl to like me for forever. I've tried so hard to convince myself that I'm not completely unlikable, but recently I had to give up. I gave up trying. I had to admit that maybe I am unlikable.
Now everything has changed. I feel like it can't be real. I've always been one to second guess compliments. I've always been sure people were simply being kind, or they had an alternative motive. People are a bunch of liars.
And all my self-conscious issues are coming up at once. I'm not good looking. I'm not funny. I'm not smart. I'm not talented. I have nothing going for me, why would a girl possibly like me?
To answer that question: I don't know. I mean, yes, we do relate to each other in sometimes uncanny ways. That would definitely bring about a great friendship, however I still don't see how or why she could like me. But she does. She's assured me of that fact. And it's not like I had to settle for some girl that I'm not really into, this girl is amazing.
I really like this girl. She's awesome. I could go on forever. I think maybe I just need to get over myself and accept a good thing when it comes my way. And this is a real good thing.
I feel exactly the same way about myself, i don't think im that funny or talented or good or that bad looking or any of that stuff either. and close to no boys have ever like me, which sometimes i also don't understand because, you know, im not really -bad- or anything. So i also at times feel that i am unlikable, but im hopeful that my time will come and the love ive been longing for i'll finally find. I'm glad you found someone, and personally i find you very likable, and im actually surprised that you were in the same situation as i. (you have really nice eyes)
ReplyDeleteI like his eyes too.
ReplyDeleteThey're better in person.
Wallflowergirl68 - You're cool. Just know that. The fact that you feel a lot like I do is crazy. I'm crazy for thinking the things I do. You're likable, I'm sure. You see, it turns out I was wrong. :)
ReplyDeleteThe Ginger - <3