Life In Its Current State

I came to a point in my life where I realized I was holding on to things. I had to let them go if I was ever to allow new things to come into my life.

I talk a lot about letting go, but it was truly real this time. I knew I had to completely let go and let God do his thing in my life. It was when I gave up in a sense, and allowed God to fulfill his plan in my life, that good things started to happen.

I met a girl. A really incredible girl. We have now been dating for two weeks. Things are serious, things are certain. Everything is amazing. I couldn't ask for anything more.

As much as I've written in this journal about past girls, and as much as they have truly meant to me, this girl is different. With any other girl I've been with, there were always doubts - either on my side of the girl's side. This time around neither of us have any doubts. I've never been more sure of anything in my life.

The last girl I was with proved to me that I wouldn't have to settle for a girl that I didn't feel was ideal for me, and this girl is so much more. I like everything about her. Every single thing I've ever looked for is contained in this one spectacular girl. She's better than I could have ever imagined.

I'm happy. Now, I don't believe that you have to have a significant other to be happy. I just believe you might have to stop holding yourself back from enjoying life. You have to allow good things to come, whether those things are people or whatever else. I wasn't sure if I'd ever truly be happy, and now I really am. Nothing is eating away at the back of my mind, this just feels right in every way.

This is good for me. I've never had anything more healthy. Sure, we've only been together two weeks, but I feel confident our relationship will be the best imaginable.

This all makes me excited about life again.