This Is Good

I've been hesitant to write in my journal recently. I'm actually doing really well. I'm doing the best that I've ever been. Life is really good.

I know that I have some followers that can relate to my struggles, and so maybe it was my hurt that made them able to connect with me, and I didn't want to shove my happiness down their throats and make them feel alienated.

I realized that if I abandoned this journal just because I was afraid of writing happy things, then I had forgotten the purpose of this thing.

I want everyone to know that I still remember all of the struggles I've gone through. I know what it's like. But right now I'm on the other side of that. I've gotten through it. I still want to be there for anyone who needs someone with whom they can relate. If anything, my happiness should offer hope to those who are still struggling. You can be happy too.

I still have moments where I struggle. I don't know for sure if depression ever completely goes away. There are occasions where I remember the times people have hurt me. Sometimes I'm afraid of being hurt again. But now I have someone in my life who will always talk it through with me. She always makes sure that I'm okay. I think this will last.

So, I'm going to continue writing in this journal. I might talk about things that go on inside my head. I might talk about the hard parts of being in a long distance relationship. I might talk about being happy. We'll see where this goes.