Honestly, Box Car Racer is my all time favorite band. I usually tell people that Angels & Airwaves is my favorite band, but that's mainly because more people have heard of AVA, and they still kind of exist. The bands are very similar. Both have/had the Tom DeLonge as their front man. Musically, Box Car Racer is very much so the middle ground between Blink-182 and AVA. Both bands have gotten me through a lot.
I love everything about this song. Literally everything. For me, it is the perfect song. If I had to choose to listen to any one song on repeat for the rest of my life, I would choose this song without giving it a second thought. But my favorite part is the chorus, especially where he says, "Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay, That there's someone out there who feels just like me. There is."
I've always felt alone in this world. There was never any part of me that believed that there was anyone else in this world like me. I'm messed up. I'm hurt. I'm confused. I'm broken. I'm simply different.
In some aspects, I am different. I am a weird person. I don't say that in a negative way, some people are just weird. There is nothing wrong with that. But I always felt like there was so much more on a deeper level. No one functions like me. No one processes things like me. I know that's all vague, but this post is long so I need to cut it short. I'm sure I'll expand sometime.
Recently, however, I found out that there is. There is at least one person who feels just like me. Someone who thinks about things the same way I do. Someone who understands me. NO ONE has ever actually fully understood why I do the things I do, now matter how hard they might try. I found someone who is just like me.
Maybe there are even more people out there. Actually, that's kinda the reason I'm doing stuff like this.
I'm not alone. It feels so good to say that.
Not going to lie - I function pretty much the same way. I get the feeling that people don't understand me, my humour, why I do things, anything like that. Having said that, I think it's pretty freaking sweet that you've met someone else who understands you exactly who you are.
ReplyDeleteBut what do you do once you've found that person?
ReplyDeleteIs there such a thing as being too similar?
How will you grow? If they're just like you can they challenge you? Or are you stuck where you are?
Don't get me wrong, it's great that you found someone. But could you ever be more than just friends?
The idea isn't that we are exactly the same person. Obviously, we're different in many ways. But we understand each other. We can relate.
ReplyDeleteI think you will grow as a person no matter what, even if you're all by yourself. Life just does that to you.
We're not identical. But we are the same kind of person.
The idea is that I'm not a freak.