Growing

I know it's not anything new. I'm sure I've heard it somewhere before, probably many times. But when you're hurt you have a decision to make. You can either let it damage and scar you, or you can grow from it.

For most of my life I let it damage me. I let myself be the victim. To be completely honest, most people who have had a hand in hurting me had no intention of doing so. I know this to be true. But, of course, it still hurts. This last time around, I know she didn't want to hurt me. And that only helps a little. It still hurts worse than anything. However, I'm choosing for this one to not damage me. Instead, this will help me. I've already learned a great deal about myself. I've learned about people. About relationships. And about a lot more things.

I've changed a lot this past year. More than I ever would have imagined. I've changed a ton even in the past month. Heck, this past week. I'm finding my identity. Growing as a person. Growing up.

I hate that it had to end. I still don't understand everything, and maybe I never will. I guess she made what seemed like the best decision for her, and I'm just gonna have to accept that. I will have to move on with my life. I'm already starting to. But even though I wish it didn't have to be this way, I will grow from this experience. It will be good for me.