I've never been able to understand hate before. I've always been all about love, forgiveness, and peace. So the idea of being able to hate someone never made sense to me. I didn't know how it could exist. But for the first time ever, I understood it. I wanted to be angry. It would have been much easier to just be mad at her, to hate her, cut her entirely out of my life and never speak to her again. I think I discovered that you can never really grasp hate until love has let you down.
It explains all those angry songs out there. They're pretty much all about failed attempts at love.
But I couldn't hate her. She meant/means too much to me. Just because she decided that she didn't want to be with me anymore didn't mean that the things that made me crazy about her ceased to exist.
And you can't hold someone's feelings against them.
Every good story is a love story. Watch any movie. Though there are a few exceptions, almost every decent movie contains a love story. Whether it's the main story line, or a subplot, it's there somewhere. This is because it's something that everybody understands and has experienced. And it doesn't have to make sense. We all know that feelings are crazy things. It is a difficult task to control your emotions, and those of us that have learned to do so regret it. Love stories are fantastic stories because not everything has to be explained. Not everything has reasoning. It's just the way feelings are.
I can't be mad at her for the way she feels. Yeah, sure, it hurt(s) me. It really sucks for me. But that's the way life is.
Feelings and emotions are what make us human. You can't hold them against someone.
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