No Longer Insecure

I am honestly doing the best that I've been in like 2 years. I have a ton of things figured out, and I now know that I didn't have some things figure out before. I've gotten rid of A LOT of insecurity. I now know 100% who I am. I'm a stronger person. I'm smarter. Wiser.

I've always been really needy. I'm a very clingy kind of person. I've known this for some time, but I didn't really think it through and figure out what it meant. I think it came down to my dependence on people. I wrote about this in my last entry. I'm entirely dependent on other people for my happiness. That is not healthy.

I can't do that. People come and go. People say one thing one minute, and truly mean it, but things change the next moment and it's all over.

I've dealt with so much insecurity for so long, and it's all gone now. I'm hoping it's not temporary, because this feeling is incredible. I know who I am, and I'm cool with it. I no longer rely on other people to define me.

You also can't bring insecurities into a relationship, it's asking for a disaster. Someone might even find it endearing at first, but it's not a good thing. The last time I was pursuing a girl, I was talking with a good friend about it and she mentioned that she thought maybe I wasn't ready for a relationship. I didn't listen to her. I mean, I was 18, and I've been wanting a relationship my entire life. But she was right. I know that now. But I do feel that I am now ready for a relationship, whenever the right girl might come around.

How did I get rid of the insecurity? I accepted me for who I am. With all my flaws and everything. I celebrated the good things, and didn't try to hide the negative things. I read something about what makes us who we are and it really struck a chord with me. I ran with it and made my own extended adaption. I posted it on tumblr as a quote because people tend to appreciate things more if they don't come directly from me. I added a couple more lines to it and posted it on my facebook as a note. I'll post on here too. There it is below:

We are our experiences, our friendships, and our relationships. We are the things we think, the opinions we hold, and the things we believe in. We are our memories just as much as we are our hopes and dreams. We are the things we do and the decisions we make. We are our heartaches, as well as our joys. We are the promises we make, and those that we break. We are our ideas. We are the music we cling to, the movies we love, and the books we read again and again.

Now you know who you are.