So Freaking Old

I hate being this old. A lot of people like it, and when you're in your younger teens you almost definitely look forward to it. But it's honestly about to drive me insane.

I have so many decisions to make, and they all have serious life consequences.

Finances are a big thing. I need to buy a car. However, I'll be out of a job in two days. It's a complicated situation, but I think it might be for the best. Then there's college. I'm going to go into so much debt for college. It frightens me to no end. I have no idea what I'm doing.

There are so many other decisions, and they all intimidate me.

More and more, I'm considering cutting someone out of my life entirely. It's not at all what I want. But I'm afraid that I can't live like this anymore.