I've always been this way. In some ways, I feel like it's something I should have grown out of. It's as if I never fully developed.
It's a weird phenomenon because I don't really care about a lot of the things normal people care about. People invest time and energy into things I just don't understand. I don't see why they view certain things as important. But whenever something matters to me, it REALLY matters to me.
I also over-think things a ton.
I'm a firm believer in finding a balance in almost every aspect of life. There's a lot of grey out there. Politically, I'm a moderate. Things like that. I think it is rarely healthy to take anything to an extreme one way or another. But it seems that I either don't care, or I care a whole freaking lot. I don't think things through, or I completely over-think them.
I wish I could find a middle ground.
You can't be lukewarm about everything, though. It's just not the way to live.
ReplyDeleteO man, I'm with you on this one. I'm the same way, there's a lot of stuff i could care less about. I care more about important things like friends and love, things like that. And when i do care, for the life of i can't let it go. Even if I'd like to, even if it would be so much easier. Like being a vegetarian was one of those things a bit of a small one i guess but still, at one point i thought it would just be so much easier to just not care, but i couldn't. Same with over-thinking things. That's a huge problem of mine, i think myself to death and just freak myself out, or blow things out of proportion when it's just something simple anyone else wouldn't have much of a problem thinking through. So i'm constantly asking if i'm over-thinking things, so i know when i need to take a step back, take a breather, just chill and go from there.
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