Just a lot of heavy thoughts on my mind. Emotions are running wild. It's the kind of feeling that causes you to not be able to eat. I mean, I'm hungry, but I just don't find food appealing and I don't know if I could stomach it. I've also shed a few tears.
I really just want to talk to her, and I mean really talk to her. Tell her how things are. How I feel and what goes through my head. But I know I can't. It's not that I am personally unable to do so. If anyone knows anything about me, it's that I'm willing to talk about anything. I just can't put her in that position. Besides, I don't know if she would even be willing to talk to me about that kind of crap. And I don't want what friendship we might still have to disappear even more than it already has.
But right now that's the only thing I know of that could fix this. And she can't ever know.
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