I wouldn't have been able to say that a couple of months ago. A couple of months ago I knew who I used to be. I didn't even really know who I wanted to be. The thought of the future had been freaking me out, and I didn't know much about myself anymore.
I know who I am now, and that is perhaps the best thing that has ever happened to me. It is literally life-changing. It might just be one of the most important things that can happen to you.
To know who you are enables you to live. You can be yourself, and you can be okay with it. And if you don't like certain things about who you are, you have the ability to change them.
I feel that just about everybody goes through some sort of self re-discovery around the ages of 17-20, unless they've grown up with a huge sense of who they are. For some it's easier. For others it shakes their world. Mine shook my entire existence. But I believe it's necessary to fully develop into who you need to be. If you ignore it, you will never grow.
You can't be in a relationship with someone else while you yourself are unsure of who you are. It's not fair to either of you. The questions "are you okay?", "what are you thinking?", and "what is it?" will constantly be asked. How can you be with the right person if you don't know who the right person is for you? How can someone be with you when you don't know who you are? You have to figure out who you are before you can ever be with someone else.
I'm good right now. It doesn't mean that I don't have struggles, because I definitely do. But I'm actually good. I wish a few things were different, but they're out of my control, so I'm letting them sort themselves out.
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