I want to be able to allow myself to fully let go and just feel. To feel whatever it is that life has in store for me. I want to feel okay. I want to be happy again. I want to be alone in my basement and be able to smile because I know that everything is alright. I want to stop crying. I want to care about things. About someone. And I want to know that someone cares about me.
I want to stop having bad days. I just want to stop breaking down all the time.
Really, I'd settle for someone to talk to.
so you are sleeping and its 4 am ... and I'm going to bed not talking to you on the phone which made me sad so i decided to have a creepers delight and creep some of your old journal posts. when i read this it made me sad for a moment, but then i remembered what is going on in our lives ... and i just wanted to say that i love you! i know that this is old and that you don't feel the same way any more but i always want you to know how loved you are
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